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separation, seek a situation, as he would 
have no home or employment, <emotion>this thought
cut me to the heart,</emotion> as I was much attach'd
to him, and I deferred it from time to time,
though at the <sic>expence</sic>  <corr>expense</corr> of peace of mind to which
I was now, a stranger. <emotion>I was distressed and
perplexed on every side. and my burthen 
seemed frequently greater than I could bear</emotion>
the more so, as I could tell no one the real state of
my mind. This was in the year <date>1788.</date> the last
of my residence in <placename>Brinkworth</placename>; for after long
delay, I did, at length, propose to our guardian
that the business should be given up, and he
readily agreed to it. But now <emotion>my distress was
increased by the thought of my dear brother si=
=tuation,</emotion> whose comfort and happiness was in=
=separable from my own. The danger I was in,
became more and more evident to me, and the 
Savior demanded of me to sacrifice every thing
however dear and near it might be, if it stood
in the way of my souls prosperity. In the
autumn I paid a visit to <placename>Tytherton</placename>, thinking
I should not remove thither, till the following
spring, but many of my intimates, who dis=
=covered something of the anxious state of mind
I was in, endeavored to prevail on me to come with=
=out delay, and leave the winding up of our affairs
to be managed by a near relative, who might stay
with my brother <sic>untill</sic>  <corr>until</corr> it was accomplished. I
knew this was good advice, and wished I was
at liberty to follow it, but it appeared utterly
impossible, that I should leave a beloved another
so suddenly, when I had not even told him