.300036.4000594

18.
by requesting permission to go with him.
He answered, not now, but you shall come
hereafter. Thereupon he vanished out of my
sight, and I awoke; my mind being impres=
=sed with <emotion>such sensations of awe and grati=
=tude, as I cannot express in words.</emotion> And
though I lay no stress upon dreams in gene=
=ral, yet I must, and do <sic>beleive</sic>  <corr>believe</corr> that this 
was permitted for wise purposes. My Hea=
=venly Father knew my critical situation, and
how dangerous it was to my youth and inex=
=perience, to be in my measure exposed to a 
vain and treacherous world, totally unacquaint=
=ed, as I was, with its enticing snares. And
He who wept at the grave of Lazarus, did 
not disdain to notice <emotion>my tears and sorrows
over the loss of my best earthly Friend.</emotion>
After the above mentioned circumstance my bur=
=then was somewhat alleviated. <emotion>I felt a hum=
=ble confidence in God my Savior</emotion>, and could
apply many precious promises contained in
His Holy word to my self. That tho Father=
=less children are peculiar objects of divine
compassion, is a consolatory truth, which
proves a balm to my wounded mind. I
<sic>beleived</sic>  <corr>believed</corr> that I had a Father in Heaven; who was
not unmindful of my individual concerns; and
<emotion>this afforded me real comfort.</emotion> But notwithstand=
=ing all the loving kindness and tender mercy
shown me by the Lord, at this memorable pe=
=riod of my life, I felt a dread of impending
danger into which I was liable to plunge, thro'