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This embarrassed my Heart & I sometimes when I was
alone <sic>throwed</sic>  <corr>threw</corr> myself down upon my Face & weepd
& prayed to our Saviour he would let me feel that
whereof the Brethren speak! but my Heart was not
sincere I had still a hanging w<hi rend="superscript">th</hi>. earnal Things
The Minister of the Place, <persname>Brother Castrup</persname> very often
insuated insinuated to me: to become the Property of
our Saviour & to lay hold on his Mercy!
<date>A</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>o</date></hi><date>. 1746</date> I went to <placename>Copenhagen</placename> to <sic>lern</sic>  <corr>learn</corr> the <sic>Bussiness</sic>  <corr>Business</corr>
by as a <sic>Taylor</sic>  <corr>Tailor</corr>. <sic>Myn</sic>  <corr>My</corr> Intention was to keep to the
the Brethren there, but I did't <sic>lern</sic>  <corr>learn</corr> to know my
Saviour as my Redeemer from all Sins, on the
contrary became <sic>indiffent</sic>  <corr>indifferent</corr>, had carnal Inclinations
& this I carefully hid by the Brethren. My La-
bourer however somehow got Intelligence of & came
to me telling: that he would not have such Sort
of <sic>Poeple</sic>  <corr>People</corr> amongst them, as I was, & I should
in future stay back from them. I was very sorry
& went the very same Day to him & complaint in
my <sic>Perplexitys</sic>  <corr>Perplexities</corr> to him & beggd forgiveness. I not
only got forgiveness, but Leave <sic>licke</sic>  <corr>like</corr> hitherto among
the Brethren. I was very ashamed, & <sic>Sinerlicke</sic>  <corr>Sinnerlike</corr> beggd
beggd Pardon by our Saviour, but for all that it did't
reach the very foundation of my Heart. However I
was very sickly, & that I caused myself by a very

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hot spirited Quarrel I had with Somebody, so that I
& other <sic>Poeple</sic>  <corr>People</corr> thought I could't live longer. This
<sic>brocke</sic>  <corr>broke</corr> my very Heart because my <sic>Happeness</sic>  <corr>Happiness</corr> was at Stake
& I would not be lost for ever. I begged & prayd
to our Sav<hi rend="superscript">r</hi>. as good as I could for Mercy & for-
giveness, & our Sav<hi rend="superscript">r</hi>. accordingly restored my Health
again & from this time it became more Earnest in
my Heart to live quite alone for my Sav<hi rend="superscript">r</hi>. & He
did't let me without Glances of his Grace & Mercy.
<date>A</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>o</date></hi><date>. 55.</date> The Years of <sic>myn</sic>  <corr>my</corr> Apprenticeship were past, &
I set out to visit my Mother-Country. As I came
back again & should now work as a Journeyman I
became very sorry that I should <sic>intangle</sic>  <corr>entangle</corr> myself in
the World, because of my poor Heart which soon in-
clined to every Wickedness; but our Saviour kept
by all that kept his Hand about me. I saw
my Condition very miserable because I could't
give my whole Heart to our Saviour & was
as well by the Brethren I would't appear so very
wicked, but our Saviour followed me <sic>pas</sic>  <corr>pass</corr> for pass
On <date>good </date><sic><date>Fryday</date></sic><date>  </date><corr><date>Friday</date></corr> as I came to Church & heard there
the History of the <sic>Suffring</sic>  <corr>Suffering</corr> & Death of our Saviour
my Heart was quite taken & our Saviour appeareth
for my Heart & let me know in his <sic>Deathfigur</sic>  <corr>Deathfigure</corr>
& made me to know: that therein was my <sic>Happyness</sic>  <corr>Happiness</corr>
in time & in Eternity. I <sic>thanckd</sic>  <corr>thankd</corr> it to him w<hi rend="superscript">th</hi>. 
1000 Tears, that he had let me live till <hi rend="underline">this</hi> Time!