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to be <abbr>frighten&#39;d</abbr> at myself, thinking how <abbr>wou&#39;d</abbr> it be<br />
with me in this unbelieving way, <abbr>shou&#39;d</abbr> my Soul be <abbr>calld</abbr><br />
out of this world, this <abbr>occasion&#39;d</abbr> me to Sigh to our <abbr>Sav.</abbr><hi rend="superscript"><abbr>r</abbr></hi><br />
O that I <abbr>cou&#39;d</abbr> but believe, no sooner had this sigh burst<br />
from my heart, but it was as if our <abbr>Sav.</abbr><hi rend="superscript"><abbr>r</abbr></hi> <abbr>appear&#39;d</abbr><br />
before me in his Corpse&#39;s figure, and <abbr>asur&#39;d</abbr> me that<br />
it was on <del>my</del> account of my Sins that He had <sic>sufford</sic>&nbsp; <corr>suffered</corr><br />
and <abbr>dy&#39;d</abbr> and that he had thereby <abbr>procur&#39;d</abbr> peace and<br />
<sic>forgivness</sic>&nbsp; <corr>forgiveness</corr> for me, this was accompanied with such a di<br />
-vine feeling of peace that I shall never forget it. I<br />
had also several other particular visits of grace, all <abbr>w</abbr><hi rend="superscript"><abbr><u>ch</u></abbr></hi><br />
I kept quite to myself, notwithstanding the great love<br />
and kindness I <abbr>experienc&#39;d</abbr> from my Labouress, I <abbr>cou&#39;d</abbr><br />
not be <abbr>prevail&#39;d</abbr> upon to open my heart, and at such<br />
<sic>opportunitys</sic>&nbsp; <corr>opportunities</corr> <abbr>cou&#39;d</abbr> only give vent to tears, which<br />
made her think I must have something very particular<br />
upon my mind. In my 20<hi rend="superscript">th</hi> year I went to learn the<br />
Tambour work in the <orgname><abbr><u>S</u></abbr></orgname><hi rend="superscript"><orgname><abbr><u>rs</u></abbr></orgname></hi><orgname><u>&nbsp;House</u></orgname>, and as I <abbr>look&#39;d</abbr> upon<br />
them to be good <abbr>S</abbr><hi rend="superscript"><abbr>rs</abbr></hi> it was of us to me, as they were<br />
one day in boundlike conversation among themselves<br />
to find that they also felt such things as I did which<br />
<abbr>help&#39;d</abbr> to remove the load under which I had <abbr>labour&#39;d</abbr><br />
so many years, after this I had a desire to move en-<br />
-tirely into the <orgname><u><abbr>S</abbr></u></orgname><u><hi rend="superscript"><orgname><abbr>rs</abbr></orgname></hi><orgname> House at </orgname><placename><orgname>London</orgname></placename></u>, which I however<br />
cou&#39;d not get leave for, but it was made out for me to<br />
go to <placename><u>Fulneck</u></placename> into the <u>Choirhouse</u> there, this was a&nbsp;<br />
great trial for me, hearing so much of the poverty there<br />
besides leaving all my friends and acquaintances, but<br />
our <abbr>Sav.</abbr><hi rend="superscript"><abbr>r</abbr></hi> enabled me to resolve to live for him, and<br />
in the place he had appointed, <abbr>show&#39;d</abbr> I even have to live<br />
upon bread and water, I accordingly <abbr>arriv&#39;d</abbr> in <placename>Fulneck</placename><br />
<date>March 5</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>th</date></hi><date> 1779</date> and found contrary to my expectation