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<add>the</add> heart to him. He that alone knows<br />
the secrets of every heart, taught me<br />
by degrees to see into my own no-<br />
-thingness &amp; to discover the deep<br />
corruption &amp; depravity of my heart<br />
by nature, &amp; that unless I had his<br />
holy Spirit to direct me, I should<br />
remain unstable &amp; fluctuating as<br />
the water. _ Feeling this to be my<br />
case, &amp; being sensible how wa=<br />
-vering I was, I thought sometimes<br />
that it would be in vain to give<br />
myself much trouble, &amp; that if<br />
I was to be saved, I should, &amp; if not<br />
that all my endeavours to attain sal-<br />
vation&nbsp; would be fruitless. _ Mentioning<br />
once these thoughts to a Sister, she<br />
replied, that she was very sorry<br />
to hear this from me; I told her,<br />
that it was my firm belief. She<br />
then said, that she hoped our Sa-<br />
vior would convince me of my<br />
error before it was too late. From&nbsp;<br />
that time forward my ideas con=<br />
-cerning the means of salvation<br />
became quite different &amp; I was brought<br />
to believe that if I was not saved,<br />
the fault would be entirely my own.