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Righteousness." Then I got a view of our dear Saviour on the
Cross, suffering and dying for my salvation, and it was to me
as though I had been on of the standers by <add>bystanders</add> at that scene.
The Holy Ghost took this opportunity of explaining the all-
suffering of our dear Saviour's merits to me: for though my sins
appeared to me as the sands upon the sea shore, yet our dear
Saviour's so willingly humbling and submitting himself to
such immense sufferings was a full atonement for them all.
Now instead of grief, praise and thanksgiving, and I thought if
I had a thousand lives I would devote them all to him who had
done so much for me. I went on my way rejoicing for some time
very happily when the question arose, whether as I was young
and unestablished, I should not be instructed in the Doctrine of
the Holy Trinity, as I made little or no mention of any but our
Saviour to almost every one I met with. Upon this two Minis-
ters were appointed to speak with me. They said, One must
take care not to dishonour the Father by giving too much honour
to the Son; and that our Saviour himself had said, that the Father
was greater than He; and that the Son did not know certain things
but only the Father. This frightened and brought me into
much perplexity, lest I should be misled in a matter of such great
Consequence, and partly on account of the Doctrine of the Trinity.
I now became dark and confused, I wished even to feel the <sic>burthen</sic>  <corr>burden</corr>
of my sins again, but that I could not find as before.
As I was walking up and down my Room in this distress, not
knowing which God I should pray to, I cast my eyes on the Bi-
ble that lay on a table. I thought within myself: O that I
could fnd something there, that would clear up this matter to
                                                                                           me.