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The conflict was now decided; I was at no loss
to know His will: and I felt assured, that He would
strengthen my weakness, so that I should be able
to perform what He required of me, though I had
much before me to contend with, I was aware.
In this frame of mind, I soon returned home, and
without delay, I informed my brother and other
friends of my intentions. By many, I was highly
blamed, and by some commended. But I had
resolved, nor did I repent it. Whatever my feelings
might suffer, I determined, by God's help to stand
firm. He did help me; and I fixed on November
12th. 1788. for returning to Tytherton. The Daily-
word for that day, which I had not previously
noticed, was remarkable; "Come and let us return
"unto the Lord, for He hath torn, and He will heal
"us; He hath smitten, and He will bind us up."
I was much struck with these words, they sunk
deep into my heart. At length the day arrived when
I was to bid adieu to my Paternal home, and to a
much loved Brother! An old faithful servant of
my late Fathers came on purpose to accompany
me, and we set out together. I walked and wept.
without uttering a word; but my heart was lift=
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