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what was intended: O what pangs did this 
occasion: my conscience seemed to accuse me of 
cruel treatment to one I so much loved, and the ene=
=my of my soul loaded me with the foulest reproach=
=es that can be imagined till <emotion>I really felt on the
verge of destruction.</emotion> But it may well be said
that our extremity is Gods opportunity! Just at
this critical period, He was pleased to raise me
up a Friend, a person with whom I had no previous
acquaintance; but whose first conversation with me
was of such a nature that it knit my soul to
hers, in a manner I knew nothing of before. Her
words were as balm to my wounded spirit, her ap=
=parent knowledge of my case, by her own experi=
=ence, <emotion>struck me with wonder and amazement.</emotion>
I was constrained to confess, "This is the Lord's do=
=ing, and it is indeed <sic>marvellous</sic>  <corr>marvelous</corr>, in my eyes."
After repeated conversations with the same dear
friend, and the tenderness she showed to convince
me, that staying longer, where I was, would
be an error, and might be more fatal to my 
peace than I was aware of. My conscience own=
=ed, that these observations were just, but how
to put it in practice I knew not. The flesh
strove hard against the spirit, and <emotion>I seemed
ready to sink under the dreadful conflict!</emotion>
At length I sought a place alone, where no hu=
=man eye could witness my distress, and fixed