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what it was that moved Me to it, and it was the Words
of Christ, John 6.053, Where He says, Verily, verily, I 
say unto You, if he eat not the Flesh of the Son of Man,
and drink his Blood, ye have no Life in You.
<corr></corr><gap></gap>In the Year <date>1724<add><unclear>6</unclear></add></date> when I began with the Custom
of catechizing and answering with Scripture Texts, as
is usual in the reformd Church; I could give no Answer,
my Heart was shut up, oppressd and dejected, especially,
when the Point of God's Election was healed of, as it
is written, Jacob have I loved, and Esau have I hated.
O how distressd was my Soul! I had hard Thoughts of
God, and would flee from Him: I tho<hi rend="superscript">t</hi>. it is possible
that the Lord hates Me too, because I am a Sinner.
Another Time I had a great Strife within my Self,
I tho<hi rend="superscript">t</hi>. if Christ died only for Believers, how do I know
that I am a Believer; then came to my Mind, what
my Grandmother used to say unto <add>me</add> of Free Grace and
that when We were without Strength, Christ died for
the Ungodly, and that Jesus atoned for the Sins of
the whole World by his Death on the Cross. O thought
I, if I had seen Jesus in the Cross <add>Flesh</add>, I would <add>have</add> washd his

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