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a difficult and important Charge, requiring
much patience and wisom, to act towards
the Children in such a manner, as to give them
no <sic>offence</sic> <corr>offense</corr>, but rather prove a blessing to them.
Self-love also suggested the thought: hitherto
thou couldst go on unobservedly, but now
thou wilt be exposed to the criticisms of others.
However I was heartily ashamed of it & thought:
what a poor Creature am I? I vowed, to sacri_
fice my life for our Savior, and now, when it
comes to the point, I raise objections. Thus
then I accepted the proposal with an obedient
and willing mind, and can say with truth,
that this employment has proved a great
blessing to my own heart. Our Savior has
numberless times blessed me for the Children's
sake, and at the same time I had an oppor-
tunity to improve in self-knowledge.
Whener my heart was not clear & cheer-
ful, Schooling became bothersome to me
and I was necessitated to beg for new grace.
Likewise my endeavors about the Children
frequently led me to think, how much
trouble our Savior had with me, to keep
me in the right way.
Of that time there is still one day worthy
to