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This own Conscience and no one taking to the <sic>Busyness</sic>  <corr>Business</corr> I sold of with
great loss - so that when I had paid the legacy I had but 250
Pounds left - 200 of which would have been theirs if I had <sic>maried</sic>  <corr>married</corr> again
I returnd to <placename>Bristol</placename>; and now the Holy Spirit labourd to convince
me that the cause of all my Sufferings was that I had left my first
Love often <sic>aplying</sic>  <corr>applying</corr> the words which had been said the Church of old
But I still went on in a self righteous way for several years - -
At last the Lord turned and lookt upon me just as he did upon
<persname>Peter</persname> - - this look struck me to the heart I shed numberless tears for
my Care ingratitude I think it a great mercy being a person of Strong
<sic>Pasion</sic>  <corr>Passion</corr> I did not attempt my own life, for now; thought I had sinnd
against the Holy Ghost, of course could never be forgiven, [??] acquaintance
Being my distress took me often to hear preaching - - but I could <add>find</add> no rest for the
sole of my foot - - once she askt me to go to the <orgname>Moravian </orgname><sic><orgname>Chappel</orgname></sic><orgname>  </orgname><corr><orgname>Chapel</orgname></corr> saying there
was a fine man there - having never heard of these people before I said what
are they - & dont know she said but I never heard the name of Jesus repeated
so often in my life - tho was just what I wanted - - but I would not go till
<date>Easter Sunday</date> - <persname>Br. Worthingtons</persname> text was the Lord is risen indeed
and hath appeard unto <persname>Simon</persname> - this was the first time I heard the pu[??]
Gospel preached -