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soon obtaind Leave to Stay, came the <date>7</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>th</date></hi><date>. of July</date> into 
the Seminary at <placename>Lindheim</placename>, and in the <date>Beginning of
August</date> removed with the Seminary and Nursery to <placename>Ma-
-rienborn</placename>, and was on the <date>30</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>th</date></hi><date>. of the Same</date> received into the
Congregation. But as I reason'd too much over the then
flighty Period, and the Feeling of the poor Sinnership was
yet wanting to me, this caused that my Heart did not
rightly enjoy the Grace of Reception. In <date>Oct</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>r</date></hi><date>. the same
Year</date> I came to live with the Children, and the <date>2</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>d</date></hi><date>. of Jan</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>y</date></hi><date>.
40.</date> to the first Participation of the Holy Sacrament with
the Congregation, and was admitted an Acolyte. But
notwithstanding all these Blessings, the Confusion of my 
Mind still continued: the being happy as a poor Sinner
was a Mystery to me, but my faithful Saviour sought
to bring me upon my original Depravity in Soul and
Body, and I would feel nothing of all This, but would only
feel happy. By this I at last got into such Anxiety
that the World seemd too narrow for me. There was no
Body that I had a Confidence to, to unbosom my Distress
to him; in the Congregation I had no Happiness, I tho<hi rend="superscript">t</hi>. 

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