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as one that is lively and watchful. In the Year <date>1759</date> he writes:
I was very much abash'd to see so many of my Companions, so thorough
=ly chang'd for the better, and to find myself so wanting. But
since the Tears which Jesus has shed pleads for me, and will cer=
=tainly be heard, so I <sic>apeal</sic>  <corr>appeal</corr> to him, yes dearest Saviour! I entrea?
thee to give me daily a sure and certain sense of my <sic>Connexion</sic>  <corr>Connection</corr>
with thy heart, and that will surely change my Nature!
On Lord Supper day the <date>22</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>d</date></hi><date> of February 1760</date> he remarks: that from
that day forward, he dates his cure, at least that then signs of his
changing for the better, began to appear. His words are as follows:
I thought othou dearest heart, if thou wouldst this Moment take me
to thee, how gladly would I go with thee with Tears of Love & Thank=
=fulness. Now, how could I kiss thy Feet for my Grace Election, Like
<persname>Mary Magdalen</persname>; thou has forgiven me a great deal; therefore I love
thee much! The great Trouble I have had these many years
that our dear Saviour could not find me of Service to him in his
Affairs, is gone and over. I will do nothing but Love, and forget
all things besides. In the year <date>1761</date> he makes the following
Remark. Notwithstanding all the Grace which our d.<hi rend="superscript">r</hi> Saviour has
bestow'd on me, yet I find I am often mistrustful, and see more
and more, that I have a great deal of self Love and Pride, and
am too apt to think I am Neglected in my Choir. This dangerous
thing has been a great hurt to my heart, and Occasion'd a certain
hardness of heart, Anger and Coolness, towards many a Brother
whom I believ'd was made more off than of me. In the Year
<date>1762</date> our dear B.<hi rend="superscript">r</hi> Testifies he had a blessed School for his heart
<sic>tho</sic>  <corr>though</corr> somewhat Painful, because at the Renewal of the Interceptors
Class, he was not admitted one of the Number. Yet his Joy was so
much the greater and bow'd him in the Dust, as he became a
member thereof on the <date>2.</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>d</date></hi><date> of November 1765</date>; and he Expresses
                                                                                                  him

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