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at times great Uneasiness which press'd Tears from my Eyes. My
Faithful Saviour followed me and brought me now and then to
beg for Mercy and that He would would work a change in me
<sic>comming</sic>  <corr>coming</corr> one time out of a very bad Company I was ask'd if
I had not been very Merry? My distress was so great that I could
not return an Answer, just then 2 Children came before the
window and sung: Where is Jesus my beloved and my Friends <add>a</add>
My heart and Eyes presently overflow'd and I hastend to my Apart
=ment to give my <unclear>tears vent</unclear> and felt unspeakably happy
I went on some time in that Sensation but not being quite free
from the World I sufferd myself to be sometimes drawn away
which brought into a State of Indifferency. Yet our Saviour
did not leave me, but made me so restless that I can say 
of a truth I felt Hellish Anguish as all my past Sins pre=
=sented themselves before my Eyes. In this state I thought
I will be patient and let my God do with me as it shall please
him and should I perish before he has Mercy on Me. Then
our dear Saviour convinced me that true saving Faith in
him was wanting. In the greatest concern hereat I went to Bed.
It was to me as tho I was ask'd what I would have? Our d<hi rend="underline"><hi rend="superscript">r</hi></hi><hi rend="superscript"></hi>.
Saviour gave me Faith in his bleeding Merrits, and pardoned
me all my Sins. My great Distress was over, my Burthren was
removed it was as tho' I was born anew and quite freed from
the World. In this Happy Situation I continued some time
and was quite another Man so that my whole Neighbour
=hood wonder'd thereover. I would fain have told all Men
what I <sic>injoy'd</sic>  <corr>enjoy'd</corr> and went too far in that Respect, came into
Self workings and dryness. In this Situation I became acquain
=ted with Brn, who told me of grace in the Blood of Jesus.

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