Moravian Lives

May 2nd 1749 it pleased our dr Lord to take my
tenderly bloved  beloved Husband to himself in a happy
Manner. I thought imediately  immediately that now was the time
for me to go to the Congn with my dr Son & having
obtained leao - I went to Hhut in 1750 & 1751 I
was receivd into the Cong & the same year became
a Partaker of the holy Comn_. The Year 1756 was a
Year of Mercy & Blessing to me My dr  Savr gave
me to feel my Sinfulness & Defrravite[?] more than
ever; but he also comforted me abundantly & I found
in true Poverty of Spirit & in the continual Indulgence
of him an estimable Greace he gave me a poor Sinnerheart
& I experience what the blood of his Wounds can effect
upon poor wrethed Sinnern & Since that time I am
frequently blessing & ashamed of my fault & Wants,
but I am not comfortless. In 1764 I had the pleasur
to be present at the Synod in Marinborn, after wch
I came here to Zeist to help among the Widows I accepted
this office with a childlike & comforted heart, tho I
Saovery[?] well that I had not the various Gifts &
Graces reyicilite[?] to such a Chargd but I trust to my
dr Savr that he will also in this Respect accompli
sh his Thoughts of Peace over me. From my Infancy
I have experienced & recived  received nothing but Mercy & faithfulness
at his hand, so wth I can never thank him enouff  enough.
My Insufficiny  Insufficiency is great; but he is the desire of my
heart & I wish to be useful in his Service and
it is my fixed Intention to live to him & not to
my self & thus he will carry me thrro to the last