Moravian Lives

perhaps woud return to me, as he had done at various
other times, but he found best to hide his face from
me for near a year, thus I spent that time in heaviness
often praying in the distress of my Soul for another
look of his grace, thinking at every meeting I went
to, perhaps this wou'd be the favor'd time, but he de-
-lay'd it till by means of the last Synodal letter to
the Cong.ns he granted me to see myself in the right
light, worse indeed than any of those over whom I had reason'd
He also gave me grace to be truely  truly a sinner before him
and he in mercy forgave me anew, but I cannot
express in words how asham'd I was, and truely  truly
abas'd before him on account of my unfaithfulness
in that respect, but it had that blessed effect, that I
and since the end of 1759 I lived in a very happy communion with him Kept more sinnerlikely to him afterwards, Sep.r 29
1790 I rec'd a call to enter into the mar.d State with
my late dear Husband B.r Thomas Verney, He being
call'd to be Labourer of the Cong.n at Wyke, unfit as
I felt myself for this office, yet I felt a dearness to
accept of it, we were accordingly mar.d Oct.r 27th 1790
and introduc'd to the Cong.n at Wyke on the 31st the
same day my dear Husband was ordain'd a Deacon
of the B.rns Church by B.r Traneker, my dear
Husband being of a sickly habit made it somewhat
trying, but our Sav.rs nearness supported us in a
very gracious manner, and made the short time of
our marriage a time of blessing. Dec.r 4th 1791
I was safely deliver'd of a Daughter, whom my dear
Husband baptiz'd on the 11th by the name Sarah
which was his last public transaction, for by this
time his disorder had terminated in a Consumption