Moravian Lives

to be frighten'd at myself, thinking how wou'd it be
with me in this unbelieving way, shou'd my Soul be calld
out of this world, this occasion'd me to Sigh to our Sav.r
O that I cou'd but believe, no sooner had this sigh burst
from my heart, but it was as if our Sav.r appear'd
before me in his Corpse's figure, and asur'd me that
it was on my account of my Sins that He had sufford  suffered
and dy'd and that he had thereby procur'd peace and
forgivness  forgiveness for me, this was accompanied with such a di
-vine feeling of peace that I shall never forget it. I
had also several other particular visits of grace, all wch
I kept quite to myself, notwithstanding the great love
and kindness I experienc'd from my Labouress, I cou'd
not be prevail'd upon to open my heart, and at such
opportunitys  opportunities cou'd only give vent to tears, which
made her think I must have something very particular
upon my mind. In my 20th year I went to learn the
Tambour work in the Srs House, and as I look'd upon
them to be good Srs it was of us to me, as they were
one day in boundlike conversation among themselves
to find that they also felt such things as I did which
help'd to remove the load under which I had labour'd
so many years, after this I had a desire to move en-
-tirely into the Srs House at London, which I however
cou'd not get leave for, but it was made out for me to
go to Fulneck into the Choirhouse there, this was a 
great trial for me, hearing so much of the poverty there
besides leaving all my friends and acquaintances, but
our Sav.r enabled me to resolve to live for him, and
in the place he had appointed, show'd I even have to live
upon bread and water, I accordingly arriv'd in Fulneck
March 5th 1779 and found contrary to my expectation