Moravian Lives

held his hand over me, I might have plunged into
all manner of sin, for I had no power to withstand
it. O how often, when I thought on Death, and a
dread, that I should not be happy came upon me,
did I call to mind my happy years of Childhood,
wishing that I had departed this Life at that Period.
At the preparation for the H. Comn. in the Luther
-an Church, I resotred  restored anew to devote myself to
the Lord Jesus, and to live to him; & at the Con-
-firmation I promised the Minister in a solemn
manner, that from thence forward I would live
unto God in the world, & most fervently wished
for a renewal of my baptismal Grace, upon
which he blessed me with imposition of hands
for the first enjoyment of the H. Comn. During
this transaction in the presence of the whole
Congregation I trembled and shed many tears,
and went 4 weeks after, the first time to the
H. Comn with my Parents, which I enjoyed
with great awe & reverence for this highest
Good. Now it lay with weight on my mind to
become a Child of God, & to live to him in the world,
but I got into an anxious legal working, strove
to find happiness in many ways, without seeking
it, when alone it could be found - in a crucified