Moravian Lives

29.
what was intended: O what pangs did this 
occasion: my conscience seemed to accuse me of 
cruel treatment to one I so much loved, and the ene=
=my of my soul loaded me with the foulest reproach=
=es that can be imagined till I really felt on the
verge of destruction. But it may well be said
that our extremity is Gods opportunity! Just at
this critical period, He was pleased to raise me
up a Friend, a person with whom I had no previous
acquaintance; but whose first conversation with me
was of such a nature that it knit my soul to
hers, in a manner I knew nothing of before. Her
words were as balm to my wounded spirit, her ap=
=parent knowledge of my case, by her own experi=
=ence, struck me with wonder and amazement.
I was constrained to confess, "This is the Lord's do=
=ing, and it is indeed marvellous  marvelous, in my eyes."
After repeated conversations with the same dear
friend, and the tenderness she showed to convince
me, that staying longer, where I was, would
be an error, and might be more fatal to my 
peace than I was aware of. My conscience own=
=ed, that these observations were just, but how
to put it in practice I knew not. The flesh
strove hard against the spirit, and I seemed
ready to sink under the dreadful conflict!
At length I sought a place alone, where no hu=
=man eye could witness my distress, and fixed