Moravian Lives

23.
the warning, "Come out from among them,
and be ye separate." often sounded in my ears,
with a voice, like thunder, and embittered all:
An Involuntary sigh would frequently escape,
which, when noticed, was sure to produce rail=
=lery, and the accusation of being sanctimoni=
=ous and righteous over much. Ah! I thought;
you little know, how far this is from being
the real case: you are little aware, how I
feel. At other times, I was commended for
piety, for prudence, steady conduct &c. &c.
by persons wishing themselves and others 
were like me, in regard to these good quali=
=ties. This, above all the rest, stung me to the
quick; their good opinion of me served only to
condemn me |as a hypocrite.| On the other
hand, my conduct was narrowly watched 
by well meaning friends, who passed cen=
=sure upon me sometimes with more zeal
than charity; and caused me much anxiety,
which might have been spared, But they had
my good in view, I have no doubt. Many
times in the distress and perplexity of my
mind, I have wished for some cave or her=
=mitage far from the abodes of men, where
I might hide from every prying eye; where
no loathsome flattery could reach me, on
the one hand; nor uncharitable censures on