Moravian Lives

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her for her kindness towards me, and 
withdrew. But never shall I forget what
passed in my soul after this interview. I
was roused as it were from sleep: and be=
=gan to ask myself, what had I been doing?
My conscience spoke aloud and accused me
of the basest ingratitude, and most unpardon=
=able neglect. The Holy Spirit, whose sacred
work it is to convince men of sin, set mine
before me in dreadfull  dreadful array, so that the
burthen of them seemed too great to be borne.
I passed the night in very great anxiety,
and the morning brought me no relief. I
sought to be alone, where I might give
vent to my grief without observation.
It being Sunday I however went to the fore=
=noon Preaching hoping to obtain some com=
=fort, but alas! my heart was not suffici=
=ently broken yet. The Congregation meet=
=ings which followed, I had leave to attend,
but I thought, no; they do not belong to
me; I have no right to sit in such an
assembly. But it was as if an inward
monitor compelled me, and resistance
was in vain. I therefore seated myself in
the Chapel, feeling as an out-cast, who
had neither part nor lot in the matter.
I endeavored to recollect that the Lord