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This own Conscience and no one taking to the
great loss - so that when I had paid the legacy I had but 250
Pounds left - 200 of which would have been theirs if I had
I returnd to
me that the cause of all my Sufferings was that I had left my first
Love often
But I still went on in a self righteous way for several years - -
At last the Lord turned and lookt upon me just as he did upon
my Care ingratitude I think it a great mercy being a person of Strong
against the Holy Ghost, of course could never be forgiven, [??] acquaintance
Being my distress took me often to hear preaching - - but I could
sole of my foot - - once she askt me to go to the
was a fine man there - having never heard of these people before I said what
are they - & dont know she said but I never heard the name of Jesus repeated
so often in my life - tho was just what I wanted - - but I would not go till
and hath appeard unto
Gospel preached - that full free salvation which I had felt in my own
heart formerly - my own case was described in that of
was held out to me in the Suffering and Death of my Dear Savr which were
painted in the most beautiful colours to my poor distressed heart - I attended
the preaching constantly till
times my distress returned - and hearing
to buy a hymn Book he askt me several questions, in particular - if I lovd our
Lord Jesus Christ - this I could only answer with tears - next day I was as it were
compeld to go to him and open all my heart - his Wife was present he gave me
true Consolation in Christ Jesus and came to see me . . I felt such a union of Spirit
with these dear people that I could not rest till I asked then if it was
I desivd it ,: might be receivd into the Society - by way of preparation - in time
our Sav.r might receive me into his congregation describing it in a
I was recivd on the
soon after visited an old acquaintance - she was sadly afraid I should be sent
to a Widows house which she said was 300 miles distant - and intreated me to
be on my guard - this was news to having never heard there was such as house
she left the room - I saw in the window a piece of an old
lines which I never saw before nor since - Where thou determinst my abody
Cover there my choice shall be . for in thy presence death is life. And earth
is heaven with thee - I was sure this was the spot my Sav.r designed for me - -
when I went home our people said the place was calld F
an excellent Character of
she would be a Mother to me - - this impression was removed to me when I read
the Brethrens history - I simply asked our Sav.r if I should write for Recepto
into the Cong.n or speak about the Choir house first. I felt him near my heart
and was directed to write and then to speak about Tulneck - - he also gave
me the power to do it - which I could not before tho I had attempted it
many times.
gave me great encouragement . . the br following the opacious
Head and Colder of his Church, Receivd me into his Congregation
with a