Moravian Lives

for the name of Jesus [page is cut off]
attempted before, tho I was confirmed & the Bishop at the age of [cut off]
this was in the year 1773 . . on Easter Sunday early I waked from
a Dream I had of being in Heaven where I saw in letters of Gold
the Resurrection of Jesus Christ and believd there was a people on
earth assembled at this very moment to sing the Praises of the Lovd
and that I should once belong to them . . I went on my way rejoicing
thinking my heart was quite clean - but to my great surprise found
evill  evil thoughts arise in my mind - - and that word of Scripture occurd
often -- Take Loed lest there be in any of you an Evill  Evil heart of unbelief
in departing from the living God - this caused me great perplexity
for instead of submiting  submitting to the teachings of the Holy Spirit - I was
like a froward[?] child who thought I could non go alone and fell . . .
I got into reasonings about the Holy Trinity and abundance of things
untill  until I was quite confusd . . I still corresponded with Tho! Slarttyr
who had been in London and Hampshire with the same family
He beged  begged my pardon for his misbheaviour some years ago and
intreated me to marry him saying he had saved 300 Pounds in his
Service. I wrote him an account of my awakening and imagined by his
answer that a work of grace was begun in his heart - my Aunt died
soon afer  after and left me 270 Pounds besides valuable - - I non conceivd
the proud vain hope of converting him to our Sav.r and with this view
gave my consent . . tho it often occurd to my mind Be ye not unequally
Yolned[?] with unbeleivers  unbelievers and other text of Scripture which was
in certainly Admonitions from the Holy Spirit  . . I also dreamd
I saw a Man stand with his Back towards me in a Garment
of a Blood colour. . in his hand he held a ring which he threw
into the sky I saw it turn into 2 bright stars with a singall  single spark
between . . while I was looking a voice said to me you will
be maried  married - but soon separated - - the small star signifies a child
the man who stands there is Our Lord Jesus Christ - - -
his comming  coming to Bristol left me no time to think . . we were
maried  married the first of June 1775 and went to live at Bradford
in Wiltshire entering into the breiving Cruyness[?] - - - and Now
instead of the happiness I had expected my Sav.r hid his Trace
from me I met with nothing but afflication - I was brought to
to bed of a little girl in March 1776 who died at eleven weeks old
and Feb.r 1 1777 became a truly disconsolate Widow - - for tho my
Savr at the moment of my Husbands departure took me as it were
in his Arms and promisd to be my Everlasting Husband. . Yet
I had lost that tender constant communion with him which I
had before I was maried  married . . my Husbands relations perswaded  persuaded
him to make a Will to their mind tho contrary to the dictatis
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