Moravian Lives

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blessing and benefit of the Congn, in the course of my
poor services in the respective Congns, this I could not but ad-
-here closely to, and persue, and I never doubted, but our
Saviour would always stand by me and help me thro', which
he has also faithfully done in his own time and way, for
which my heart has oftentimes overflowed with thanksgiv-
ings. As to the Idea which I have sometimes heard spoken
of, as tho' there existed a different interest of the Labourers
and the other Brethren and Sisters; this I always looked
upon with abhorrence, and arising either from a very
weak understanding, or from a selfish or criticizing -
spirit, which deserved no serious attention. My long
stay in Fulneck has in various respects been of real
blessing to me. At certain times I have felt and seen
more into the depth of my depravity and misery, than
ever before in my whole life, which has made my Re-
demption thro' the incarnation and death of my ever bless-
-ed Saviour, unspeakably great and dear to me. Once in
particular I had a time, when I felt such things in my-
self, which I never thought could have been still there,
this filled me for some time with such a sense of shame
and distress, that I wept the bitterest tears at the feet of
our Saviour, and by poring too much upon my great vileness
and depravity, I became for sometime very miserable, but
knowing that I had no way left, but turning to my merci-
ful and gracious compassionate Saviour just so as I was, I did so; and
spoke to him to this effect; "Is it possible my dr Lord that
thou can'st bear with me, nay even love such a very poor