Moravian Lives

heart burning with love to him and gave myself soul and body up to 
him, to be his own for ever. This overpowering sensa
-tion of his love and grace, lasted in the same manner
for several weeks, and many a time did I walk the
streets with tears running down my face at the thought
of his love and bitter sufferings for me. and the Texts
of scripture treating of this great matter, which I had
learnt before as a part of divinity, came now into my mind
with such a powerfull  powerful and new impression as tho' I had
never heard them before; But now I wanted fellow-
ship, and knew of nobody to associate with but the
Pietists of whom there were several in the College,
I visited some of them, and told them the state of my
heart, but I perceived they did not understand it, but
they spoke much to me about doctrinal points, seeking
after holiness, striving against sin, praying much and
the like, and as I looked upon them as much more
experienced Christians than myself, I thought a great
deal about what they had told me, and came gradually
off from my happy and childlike course and into a legal
selfworking which lasted about a 12 month. In this time
I went on a visit to my parents, and on my return I 
had to pass over the Baltic Sea again, being in the
very severe winter between 1739 and 1740, the Sea which
is there 24 miles over, was covered with large pieces of