and other Things were also in the Choir House and getting an Answer in the affirmative, she was very much rejoiced, and said I am Satisfied if I only may have the Favour to live in that House; which also soon after happened; however since she got that Hurt she was not so well as before, and her Constitution being in general weakly and in a declining way, it could plainly be seen that her Course in this Life would soon be at an End;she went on in a simple, childlike Way, having her eyes fixed upon her bleeding Bridegroom: in the year 55 about Christmas she began to cough pretty much,but concealed her Disorder as much as possible and did at first not like to use any thing which might give her Ease, however after a While perceiving more of her Consumptive Disorder, she had a mind to try some Physick and was also a little eased thereby , tho by all the Symptoms which appeared and her Weakings increasing, she began to think seriously that she should soon go home; this went at first a little near her,she said to her Sister it grieves me very much that I have not been nearer our Saviour, I believe I might have enjoyed more of Him if I had kept closer to Him,but however he loves me dearly and has much Patience with me: About the middle of June she took to the sick room,when being asked if she should not like to be well, she answered no, I like better to go to our Saviour; after that Time she once went into the Hall to the holy Communion,as coming home again she was so sick , that the Sisters told her they thought it would have been better for her not to have gone, but she answered them I am exceeding glad that I have been once more , for it is my last Time; She continued ever since in a cheerful happy situation of Heart, and expressed many Times how near she felt our Saviour,especially at the Sacrament,said in such a mannor as to render me quite strong, yet my longing and Desire is to go to Him, who has done so much for me I wish that that happy Time may soon come when my soul shall be dissolved and be with Him.
