Moravian Lives

came that I had leave to come and live
in the Srs House in Fairfield. I then
began to repent. I had ever mentioned any
thing of the Kind, feeling myself very ten
derly attached to my Brother who was 6
years younger than myself, having promis'd
my parents that I would care for him un
till  until he had ended his apprenticeship of
which he had 3 years to serve, but such
was my faithful shepherds came over me
that which on the one hand, affection to-
wards my Brother drew me, yet on the
other hand, I felt that I must now pro
ceed in the path my Savior had appoin
red, Altho I had a great struggle in my
mind to give all things up. April 15th 
1789 I set out for Fairfield, and on
the 18th I arrived safe and well at my
destin'd place, here I was received in much
love by all the Srs; the first year I spent
here was very happy and chearful  cheerful, untill  until
the year 1790, a period of my life begun which
I cannot pass over, and which will never
be forgot by me; our Savior was pleased
to show me what a very poor creature
I was by nature, in such a manner
that indeed I thought at times I should
lose my Senses; darkness and despair