Moravian Lives

Jan. 29th. 1748. In Aug. the same Year I moved to Lindheim
in Wetteravia to have the Care of the Childrens Oeconomy Economy, where
I had the Pleasure to recieve the first Account to be depended
upon from my dear Husband, by a most affectionate Letter
of his own Handwriting. In 1751 Br. Risler came to Marien,
born from Petersburg, & brought me by Word of Mouth good Ac,
counts of my dear Husband, & offered me to take me along with
him. This Offer I received as out of the Hand of our Savior. And
Aug. 1st. I sat out with him & his dear Wife thither with the Blessing
of Count Zinzendorf and the Brn and Srs. My four Children I re,
comended to the faithful Heart of Jesus & the Congregation, &
my Heart was then so disposed: I know that I am Jesus Pro,
perty; of his Flesh & of his Bone, & shall remain his eternally
tho' I am very poor and wretched. I go with that Mind to my 
dear Husband to do that which our Savior would have me to
do, and I shall continue sitting at the Feet of Jesus. The 29th. 
the same Month we arrived at Petersburg. But I had to keep
myself at first very still in Br. Koehlers House, till he had
procured Leave for me to come to Petersburg. Besides this I
grew so sick, that I could not think otherwise, but that I should
depart this Life without having seen my Husband. Add to this
that I could not even let my Husband know anything of my
Trouble, because whatever I wrote to him I had to regulate
so that all might read it, because Leave for my Journey to
Petersburg was not yet procured. This was a very hard Trial

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for me, & yet but a small one in Comparison of those to come.
I spent my sleepless Nights in Conversation with my only Friend,
wetted my Pillows with Tears; Jesus Perplexities, his merit
orious Tears, & nightly Prayers, were of great Service to me,
they strengthened & comforted me, so that I could childlikely
resign myself to him, & believe that if I even should go home
to Him without having seen my Husband, that he however
would be my most faithful & never failing Friend, who knows
best for what Reason he has brought me hither. Br. & Sr Risler
& Ferbers visited me as often as possible, & refreshed my
needy Soul, which I shall acknowledge with Gratitude as long as 
I live. I however recovered again & Sept 8th. |:1751:| being our
Wedding Day, Br. Koehler made me the Pleasure & led me in,
cognito with his Family to the Brethren in Prison. This
was indeed a great Joy to see each other again after so long a
Time. In Oct. 1751 I obtained at last Leave to move to my
dear Husband, to whom Leave was granted to move with the
Brn Helterhof & Fritshe |:Gudslef was already gone to our Savior:|
into the hired House of Sr. Helterhof. This was a great Refresh,
ment for my sick & weary Heart. But even this could not come
to pass without Trouble, for there came soon Counter Order
that I should not yet move to my Husband, & I had to live 6
Days with Br. and Sr Risler in a private Manner. However we
had afterwards the Pleasure to live together for some Time,
which was effected by the inexpressible Pain Br. Koehler took, who
for our sake had to put up with much Vexation & Reproach.