Moravian Lives

uneseyness  uneasiness of mind hoping to find
better people & find rest for my heart
I travilled  traveled to London where I livd
9 years with a tradsman  tradesman in Smithfield
who trusted all his buysnis  business & cash in
my hands himself oft travilling  traveling ???
cuntrys  countries but on my being Awakend
he hated me he once tould  told me
that I rewined every servant that
came in his Hous  House there having
been 3 that became Awakened
In about the year 1738
I first hard  heard the clear saving Gospel
by the Reverd George Whitfield
which to me was the power of God
here I got the first hop  hope of being savd
by Grace & not works
In this my awakend state I viss-
ited  visited my old Minister whom I thoug-
-ht should & would have incouragd  encouraged
& rejoycd  rejoiced with me in stead of which
he endavourd  endeavoured to battel  battle me in my pers=
=nite woundering that I who had been
so long a Member of the H. Communion
with them shud  should now becom  become so unesy  uneasy
he having on inquery  inquiry found me
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to have an unspotted Camictar?
adding that I must not expect to
know what would become of my Soul
till I Died &e&e woundering over my
shallow short sighteadness  sightedness I got quick
from him (it being night) & on my
hom it darted in my heart (viz) you
seek help & ease by the rong  wrong Man.
its our Saviour only that can help you
this. tho I had off hand but as yet not
believd being perswaded  persuaded that I had
much to do as Praying fasting
receiving weakley  weakly the ?? Sacrament
giving Almes & the like from which
now it pleasd our D.r Saviour indem[?]
to releas  realse me granting me to rest
only & alone on His Sacread  Sacred Month
word faile[?] to express the Happyness  Happiness
I enjoyd but having as yet but
little intercorse  intercourse with the Br.n som  some
Rich Merchant of the souce? buysniss  business
I was in (Oil Man) continied to porpo
sals of Marriage after I on thare  their
Creddit  Credit got a shop well furnished &e
here I became sore intangeld
that I againe  again had no rest
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