Moravian Lives

                   1743
keept  kept in Herrnhuth (:Tho I understood nothing of it:). I was moved to write
to B.r Dober, which I accordingly did. In the affternoon  afternoon I went in the
Hall, and the above mention'd Brother read my Letter among the rest, which
greatly surprised me, as that was not my Intention, after he had read
it he sung me a Verse, which melted my heart. The next Prayerday
the 2.d of February I was receiv'd into the Congregation and wish'd
heartily that I might become a Joy to our Saviour in the same.
The 16th of March I had the unexpected favour to partake of the
Holy Sacrament. What I thereby enjoy'd I cannot express, I was quite
astonish'd at this Grace. I then went on my Path in Simplicity
and enjoy'd the Sisters Love In the Spring of the Year 1743 The
First Widdows  Widows house being settled, I had the favour to be admitted
into the same and was very happy among my Sisters. Sometime
after I felt opress'd at heart; I consulted my Brn: and Sisters, they directed
me to the Friend of Sinners where I should receive comfort, and I ex=
=perienced the Truth thereof. One time I went into the Woods and
laid my Distress before our dear Saviour, Tho my Tears spoke more
than I could express in words. Presently he drew near my heart, and
I saw him with the Eyes of my Spirit in his Bleeding Form. Our d.r
Saviours tender loving look pierced me to the heart, so that I could really
look upon myself as utterly unworthy of his Grace; and in the deepest
Humility and Bowedness of heart, could only cry out: Is it possible
that thou canst love such a Sinner! This contemplation gave me
a true insight that my self Righteousness, that Spotted Garment
had hitherto been allways  always in my way. At that time a change
was wrought in me that I cannot describe, and my heart became
light and easy. From that time forward our Saviours labour
in my heart has been unwearied. My becoming Discipless
of my Choir in the Year 1758 was a peculiar Blessing to me
as was likewise the Consecration of our New Choir House, which
made such a blessed Impression on my Heart, that I shall never
forget it. Whenever I felt myself at the worst, and have thought
what unspeakable Grace our Saviour has bestow'd on me, and that
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He surely could not be satisfied that I had made such a small im=
=provement therein. Just at such times he has given me new proofs
of his Grace and Mercy, Yea his love bows me in the Dust and
Constrains me to acknowledge: the Lord has done, and still does
great things for me, from my Cradle to the present time in
which I am 70 Years of age; for which I rejoice and wonder.
             Thus far her own words.
She led a Respectable and quiet Life among us. Her childlike
converse with our dear Saviour, and her attachment to his Suffring
Form was visible in her whole Carriage. She was pretty lively in
her Old Age, but about a twelve month past she began to grow
sickly; she told her Labouress, that notwithstanding her weakness
Faults and infirmities; her heart was full of Confidence in our Sav.r
to whom she could go with cheerfulness as a blushing Sinneress;
who had nothing to plead but his Blood, and his Righteousness.
The 12th of September last she partook the Holy Sacrament with
her choir, and express'd herself that she felt so happy, she had
forgot all her weakness:    The 14th she moved into the sick room
where she was soon taken with an intermitting fever and swelling
of her feet. In October she sent for her 2 Sons conversed some
time with them with great Tenderness and concluded with this
verse: We here present now our Hands are Joining - - To our
           suffring Jesus ourselves Binding faithful unto him
           to prove &a/c
She then laid her hands on each of them; and gave them her
Maternal Blessing. The sweet feeling that attended this Trans=
=action made such an Impression on her Sons, that they will
never forget it. The Swelling and Oppression at her Breast in=
=creased so, that she was obliged to spend Day and Night in her
Chair not being able to lie Down; we could not do anything that
gave her so much pleasure as Singing of Verses, she was Sensible
to the Last Moment and look'd upon all round her with the greatest
Tenderness and most happy Countenance. The great Sabbath
of her Members came the 8th of January, to which she receiv'd 
the Blessing of the Congregation and her Choir during a sweet