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many things made great impression on me, yet I constantly turnd to myself
workings, which prevented my attaining to true and lasting Rest.
I became daily more sensible that I fell short in all things, and that
my self working was for nothing, and had no one to complain to, or to
ask advice of in the place where I dwelt. My Husbands last illness
was a fever, some Hours before his departure being exceeding weak and
low, he lay quite still without speaking a Word; but with such a
- Nien as
tho though he was meditating on something of the greatest Impor=
=tance. All at once he lift up his Hands and cry'd aloud: Thy Cross shall
be my Staff in Life &ca. which verse he repeated thrice. I soon per=
=cievd these words would Possibly be his last, and so they was, and he
departed shortly after. This made a great Impression on me then, nor
to this Hour have I lost it. As soon as my dear Brother
Schulz
he desired me to send my 2 Sons to him, he would take care of them.
This was very agreeable to me, and I came with my 3 Children to
=lin
Best Teachers; whose Ministry might be the greatest Blessing to my
Heart, He told me of 2 yet says he: There is a Count in
whose discourses would exactly suit you, and shew'd me the
House where the Disciple used to keep Meetings. I came thither
the first time, when none but the Family was assembled, and the
Disciple spoke on the Words: The least shall be as David.
In this Discourse he treated on the subject of the true Sinnership
and Sanctification proceeding from the Suffrings and blood shed
=ding of Jesus, and that so clear & convincing; and with so much
impression on my heart, that I was
heartily rejoiced to hear that which I had been so long in search
care taken of me! but the Disciple and the rest of the Brn: and
Sisters soon left
ways
Brother, for which reason I often wish'd to see
when I return'd to
some years at
and talk'd with my Brother about it, He advised me against the
Journey for several Reasons, and beg'd me to search my heart
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it was from our Saviour. I answerd from self will it cannot proceed, be=
=cause I am fearful of returning to
=nation to it, particularly on account of my 2 youngest Children. Some
weeks after he ask'd me, how I was disposed in regard to my Journey.?
I answer'd it was so to me that I should go; well then said he, go in
Gods Name! and
will know hereafter. I therefore prepar'd for my Journey, and agreed
with a Coachman to bring me to
at
August 1742
agreed with the Coachman beforehand, yet he waked me at 5 o Clock
the next morning and told me He would not wait for me. My Baggage
was likewise all sat down out of the Coach, without my knowing for
what reason. I could not
was in some concern; till a Sister coming to me, & told me I might
soon meet with an
this Circumstance, because it prov'd the means of my staying here,
and mine and my Childrens lasting blessing, and
my bleeding Redeemers Gracious Intentions with us was accomplish'd
I should be too tedious was I to Relate how powerfully my heart was
laid hold on in the first days of my Abode here, will only Mention
that on the
sung: Jesus Christ look upon thee Redeem'd Congregation, thou
art his because that he, purchas'd thy Salvation. the impression
it made on my heart is greater than I can express. To be short,
I saw for the first time, that all my good works was rather a hin=
drance to me, than a furtherance, so that our Saviour had thereby
been prevented from making me so happy as
done. From henceforward a peculiar Labour of the Holy Ghost was
began in my heart; and I was really concern'd to get a thorough
Knowledge of myself. The fall of the year aproaching approaching, Br.
Dober
was I shall stay here this Winter. When the first Cong.n Day was