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as one that is lively and watchful. In the Year
I was very much abash'd to see so many of my Companions, so thorough
=ly chang'd for the better, and to find myself so wanting. But
since the Tears which Jesus has shed pleads for me, and will cer=
=tainly be heard, so I
thee to give me daily a sure and certain sense of my
with thy heart, and that will surely change my Nature!
On Lord Supper day the
that day forward, he dates his cure, at least that then signs of his
changing for the better, began to appear. His words are as follows:
I thought othou dearest heart, if thou wouldst this Moment take me
to thee, how gladly would I go with thee with Tears of Love & Thank=
=fulness. Now, how could I kiss thy Feet for my Grace Election, Like
thee much! The great Trouble I have had these many years
that our dear Saviour could not find me of Service to him in his
Affairs, is gone and over. I will do nothing but Love, and forget
all things besides. In the year
Remark. Notwithstanding all the Grace which our d.r Saviour has
bestow'd on me, yet I find I am often mistrustful, and see more
and more, that I have a great deal of self Love and Pride, and
am too apt to think I am Neglected in my Choir. This dangerous
thing has been a great hurt to my heart, and Occasion'd a certain
hardness of heart, Anger and Coolness, towards many a Brother
whom I believ'd was made more off than of me. In the Year
r Testifies he had a blessed School for his heart
Class, he was not admitted one of the Number. Yet his Joy was so
much the greater and bow'd him in the Dust, as he became a
member thereof on the
him
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himself in these terms: It was a peculiar Blessing to me that I was
ns Concerns before our Saviour, and became
more and more assured of being heard. I became seriously concernd
and begd the Holy Spirit to form me a true Child of God, and a
Liturgish Brother heart, that I might be an honour to our d.r
Saviour in all my undertakings." In the year
that he had earnestly intreated our d.r Saviour (notwithstanding
his bodily Weakness) to give him an
only 1 half year before his End) of telling Souls what our d.r Sav.r
had done for them. But our d.r Saviour took the Will for the
dead and spoke his heart to peace. Our Saviour likewise sought
to bring him more into the Evangelical Sinner=Path, because
he would not
himself to be, and because others failings was more visible to
him than was necessary, which was often a disturbance to
the true brotherly Love he might have enjoyd, yet his Conclu=
=sion was on the
I am determined to make the best use of all my hours, and see
and as we was Sensible of the
Saviour, we could bear with patience with his weaknesses, which
was become second Nature to him, and which cost him many
Tears. Our d.r Saviour who looks only at the heart, never left
him behind, when he granted the Cong.n of his Choir, a Parti=
=cular Blessing. his Age and Increasing bodily weakness
made him believe his time here below was but short, and he
often express'd his wish: that our d.r Saviour would take him
to himself, and that Suddenly. This he repeated on the day of his
departure. Our dear Saviour made a happy preparation to this,
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