Moravian Lives

can forget it. I acquainted Brother Clemens with what had happend
and told him I had now receiv'd a certainty of my Salvation, and
Rejoicied him greatly with this News. Tho  though he had enough to do, to
Perswade  Persuade me to Stillness. I now had an inexpressible Love for the
Bible, and Child likely beg'd our d.r Saviour to give me a greater Cer
=tainty of my Salvation, and to confirm it to me thro  through the Precious
words and Promises of holy Scripture. I cannot express how sweet
every Verse, yea every Word, was to my heart. hitherto I had not
heard a word of the Cong.n at length Br. Clemens one day said to me
Well, what will you do now, I shall soon go to the Congregation? I beg'd
him to tell me what he meant by the Cong.n upon which he gave
me a short Discription  Description of the same. I presently answerd: I must go
to that People. And that not difficulties might be made, on account
of my Support, I said I would be content with Bread & Water.
But oh how graciously has our d.r Saviour dealt with me, for he
has given me far more than ever I expected. Soon after B.r
Clemens set out to Ebersdorff, and 6 Weeks after I followed him
with B.r Woltersdorff, and arived  arrived there the 19th of October 1745.
In the first Meeting I was in the Verse was sung: Thou hast thy
=self reveald, within my Conscious heart, my Jesus clearer than the
Sun, I see thy wounds and smart &ca at the singing of which I had
a Sensation allmost  almost as at the time I first receiv'd grace, and wept
for Joy and thankfulness. Some time after this; I partook the
Body and Blood of Jesus in the Lord Supper, and never shall
forgett  forget what I enjoy'd at the first Participation, it was to me as
tho  though I again saw our Saviour hang on the Cross for my Sins sake
and the hand writing blotted out which was against me. The 18th
of July 1748 I came to Herrnhuth and the 13th of August following
Partook the Holy Sacrament with the Cong.n in the Church at
Berthelsdorff. The 23d of May 1750 I was admitted to the Single
Brns: Covenant. It was no hard thing for me to pour out my
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whole heart before my Brn:, and our Saviour gave me a New Assurance
of the forgiveness of my Sins. The 14th of February 1752 I came to Dwell
School at great Hennersdorff, and had the care of 2 Saddle Horses.
Here, I passd thro  through many Vissisitudes, as it was not yet become agree=
=able to me, to appear before my Brn: as such a Sinner as I was apointed  appointed
Equery to the young Accademists there. Thus far our dear Brother 
has wrote to his Personals. ______From the Year 1757 to the year 1767
he has remarked from year to year, chiefly what his heart learn'd
and experienced in Communion with our dear Saviour of which we
shall here give some short extracts. ___ Of the Year 1757 he makes
the following Remarks: "Notwithstanding this has been a year of
"great Blessing to me, yet I have found a great failing in me, which
"is, the desire to become somewhat, and be more look'd upon than
"I deserve. As likewise my Passionate and hasty Temper, robs me of
"any Blessings. The 14th of September was a Remarkable day
"in which unworthy I, was admitted among the hourly Interceptors
"Thro  through Grace I then felt what a Communion Subsists among us,
"when one Sinner prays for the other." In the Year 1758 he
remarks how the Texts for the day were so suitable to his heart
and gives the following instance: "I beg'd my dear Lord to give
"me a new and Powerful assurance of my being a Child of God. The
"answer in my heart was a gracious yes, and my tears said Amen!
I look'd at the Text for the day and to my Surprise found it
this: As many as receiv'd him, to them gave he Power to become
the Children of God -- and his Grace helps our Weakness." In 
another place he says: "I have found, that the Lords Suffrings is the
only thing which can make me a poor Sinner, it is this which softens
the heart, and gives it true Life. This gives me great Pain, that I am
often so indolent, an Indolent Person does not enjoy half so much
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