Moravian Lives

along on the Busness  Business myself. But several things making
me not chuse  choose to stay with my Master any longer, I went
to another Brew House, where I carried on the Busness  Business 14 Years.
During this season many things offer'd, which might have
been a snare to me, and I was often near being drawn into
sin, but Just as I was upon the Point, something allways  always
held me back. So that afterwards I have often wonderd how
it came to pass. My faithful Saviour had something better in
store for me which I now enjoy. In the year 1735 I was awakend
and went on some years under a great concern for my Salvation,
till the year 1742 I had a severe fitt  fit of Illness. Then my Concern
became real, I had no Assurance of my Salvation, and felt nothing
but doubts and Fears. I beg'd of God to restore me to my Health, or at
least not to let me dye  die, till I knew what would become of me. As soon
as I recoverd, I earnestly thought to amend my life, and gave myself
much trouble, but nothing would do, when I thought had done my best
a Circumstance would happen which quite overturn'd my Self Righ=
=teous Building. At length in the year 1744 I became acquainted with
the Brn. and heard of them, that only in our dr. Saviours Merrits  Merits
and Wounds, grace and Blessing was to be sought and attaind.
This was agreeable to me to hear, yet I feard I was to  too undeserving
to receive it, and that keept  kept me back some time. But our dear Savr.
did not desist following me, untill  until I gave myself up to him just as
I was, and receivd the offerr'd  offer'd grace and Salvation gratis. By which
Means my heart was at Peace and I obtaind the Forgiveness of my
Sins and a Childlike Confidence in our Saviour. And alltho  altho I
afterwards often griev'd him, yet he never forsook  forsaken me, but allways  always 
pardon'd me anew, and gave me to find his gracious Countenance was turn'd
towards me. I became tired of my hard Labour in the Brew House
in which our dr. Saviour had prosperd me in temporals greatly,
and left my Abode without knowing rightly what I would under=
=take: At first I thought I would visit my Parents in Hollstein, and
childlikely believ'd that then, my further Path would be shew'd me.
Our Saviour order'd it so, that Just as I was going to sett  set out got Holl=
stein, Br. Cröger went to visit the Congn. I laid asside  aside my intended 
Journey and went with him without considering wether  whether I would go
to visit, or to stay there. But on the way thither it was made
out to me that I should spend the Remainder of my days in the Congn.
We arived  arrived there in May 1754 and our Saviour granted my Request