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and as my poor Heart, notwithstanding its Corruption was always
soften'd and my Eyes swam in Tears whenever I read of Jesus Suffring
for the Sins of the World, I felt the same Emotion at reading these Hymns
and had a desire to hear more of these people, and this I obtain'd
by means of my dear deceased Uncle
was in
to me and in the year
to my House on his Journey
Man was a great Blessing to me. He look'd cheerful and happy, that
I was not, and myself made confidence in Jesus
stand the Test, nor quiet the uneasiness of my heart. After this
the Brn: freqeuntly calld to see me and when they was gone my
Conclusion was I am not like them, I do not know our Saviour.
I wept and pray'd and conferr'd with my Colleague
receiv'd poor comfort, often I stretch'd myself in the Dust and
beg'd our Saviour to look graciously on me, but in the Midst
of my groans and Lamentations
arise, you are not in Earnest, If I give you Honour, and leave you
in your High Life, then I may be your Saviour of choice, but it
would not suit you to forgo all things for my sake, so as I have
for your sake. I felt the Truth of this Reproach, and must be
Silent. Mean time the uneasiness of my Soul still increas'd
I began to mourn and lament again, but as it
out Fruitless; the Enemy put it in my Mind that I was a
cast away, our Saviour neither would, nor could be Merciful
to such a sinner. This went so far that I was actually be=
=tween Atheism and Desperation. I could no longer Pray
but wherever I turn'd cried out: Oh Jesu Oh Jesu! The
of October 1744
Pitch, I was reading the French News Paper, and all at once
I was struck with these words which seemd as
spoke in my heart: canst thou read that, and hast no
Saviour
This
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This shock'd me so, that I let the Paper fall out of my Hands and
fell after it to the Earth. I had no utterance for words, but wept
for Mercy, and gave myself
the least limitation, that with me he might do, whats pleasing
in his sight, and from me take
thinks not right. To me it was as
to kiss the Prints of the Nails in his sacred Feet! I felt a Di=
=vine assurance of the forgiveness of my Sins, and
made, is still sure and firm, my heart is no longer mine, but His.
I shall not say much of what follow'd this change. The want of
a true poor Sinner heart often caus'd me to commit great failings.
The Awaken'd Souls keeping to me, Brought on
School Master, My Colleague, the Mayor of the City and all the Mages=
=tracy of the Lutheran Side, One Honest
Process at
Office by the Civil Magistrates, and so it went on, till the year
Mean time our Saviour gave me more
with the Brn: and in the year
=longed to this People, but how, or when, my dear Saviour would
bring me thither, that I did not dare to Consider on, this I knew;
it must
this Blessed Visitation, the Enemy grew more
a detestation to the whole City except the Awakend Souls; but my
heart was
dear Lord a Promise, which was a great Consolation to me. In
=gust 1749
=ness she felt she was a wretched Sinner, begd for Mercy and openly
confess'd she had sought the World more than our Saviour, and
fell asleep with this fervent wish: Shelter my Soul most gra=
=ciously within thy open'd Side; In the 36 year of her age.
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