Moravian Lives

From this Time I had very often the Happyness  Happiness
to feel his blessed Nearness, & discoverd very well
his gratious  gracious Intention to make me a quite happy 
Child, but I myself stood in the Way then I was allways  always
a working & doing & so spoild the blessed Work of
the holy Ghost. In this Time I feeld  felt a Calling in
my Heart to go to the Congregation in Germanie  Germany,
therefore I went Ao. 1757. home to take Leave, & then
to set out from thence, however as I came there some
strugles  struggles & reasonings arose in me, but I became restless
it was to me: If I not would go I never would come
to a true Peace. I then resolved wth. 3 more Brethren
to set out & we came 58. the 25th. June at on Hhuth. 
I was very thankfull  thankful to our Saviour that he brought
me hither & so he directed the Brethren that I got
Leave to stay here. In the first it went very well 
me I was chearfull  cheerful & happy in my Heart, but as I could
so was not firm enough in my Bussiness  Business & could not
think I would ever lern  learn it so as they do at Hhuth
I became perplexed & fell in Thoughts to return to
Coppenhagen again & therefirst to lern  learn more, then
I would come again. But our Saviour discouraged
me & I found that I should stay. The 3th. of Sept. a.e.
I was received into the Congregation. From this Time
our Savr. leadeth me upon the blessed Path of poor

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Siners  Sinners & bestowed the great Grace upon me that I was
the following Year the 17th. of Sept. July admitted to our
Lords Supper. From thence I went on gladly & could not be [?]
our Saviour not be thanckfull  thankful enough for my Election.
Sometimes I fell in Thoughts of Going home to our 
Saviour, because I had no Ability to any Thing; but
by all them changings of Thoughts I allways  always found
that our Savr. gave me Leave to go to the holy Communion,
& I myself found no Obstacles in my Heart which
could retard me. Since Easterday the last Year,
as I was at Nisky to see the Congregation, there
I grew sickly & soon after my return a violent
Pleuresie  Pleurisy sized upon me, so that I was in Hope
it would bring me home to our Saviour. I was
very glad & for Gladness my Heart weep'd to him
in my Body, but I revived again. In the Month
of November I got another Attack but not to myn  my
intented  intended Purpose, this made me several melancholic
Thoughts, but our Saviour true as he is remaineth
ever the same to me. (So far his own Account.)
So thoughtfull  thoughtful & easy embarrass'd as he was, because
of his sickly Circumstances, so much the more our
Saviour was gratious  gracious towards him; especialy  especially in
his last Sickness, which begun for about 1 Week
When he begun to be perplex  perplexed then our Saviour comforted
him & brought at last his Heart in such a calm & blessed
Situation, that he like a Child expected that last