Moravian Lives

This embarrassed my Heart & I sometimes when I was
alone throwed  threw myself down upon my Face & weepd
& prayed to our Saviour he would let me feel that
whereof the Brethren speak! but my Heart was not
sincere I had still a hanging wth. earnal Things
The Minister of the Place, Brother Castrup very often
insuated insinuated to me: to become the Property of
our Saviour & to lay hold on his Mercy!
Ao. 1746 I went to Copenhagen to lern  learn the Bussiness  Business
by as a Taylor  Tailor. Myn  My Intention was to keep to the
the Brethren there, but I did't lern  learn to know my
Saviour as my Redeemer from all Sins, on the
contrary became indiffent  indifferent, had carnal Inclinations
& this I carefully hid by the Brethren. My La-
bourer however somehow got Intelligence of & came
to me telling: that he would not have such Sort
of Poeple  People amongst them, as I was, & I should
in future stay back from them. I was very sorry
& went the very same Day to him & complaint in
my Perplexitys  Perplexities to him & beggd forgiveness. I not
only got forgiveness, but Leave licke  like hitherto among
the Brethren. I was very ashamed, & Sinerlicke  Sinnerlike beggd
beggd Pardon by our Saviour, but for all that it did't
reach the very foundation of my Heart. However I
was very sickly, & that I caused myself by a very

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hot spirited Quarrel I had with Somebody, so that I
& other Poeple  People thought I could't live longer. This
brocke  broke my very Heart because my Happeness  Happiness was at Stake
& I would not be lost for ever. I begged & prayd
to our Savr. as good as I could for Mercy & for-
giveness, & our Savr. accordingly restored my Health
again & from this time it became more Earnest in
my Heart to live quite alone for my Savr. & He
did't let me without Glances of his Grace & Mercy.
Ao. 55. The Years of myn  my Apprenticeship were past, &
I set out to visit my Mother-Country. As I came
back again & should now work as a Journeyman I
became very sorry that I should intangle  entangle myself in
the World, because of my poor Heart which soon in-
clined to every Wickedness; but our Saviour kept
by all that kept his Hand about me. I saw
my Condition very miserable because I could't
give my whole Heart to our Saviour & was
as well by the Brethren I would't appear so very
wicked, but our Saviour followed me pas  pass for pass
On good Fryday  Friday as I came to Church & heard there
the History of the Suffring  Suffering & Death of our Saviour
my Heart was quite taken & our Saviour appeareth
for my Heart & let me know in his Deathfigur  Deathfigure
& made me to know: that therein was my Happyness  Happiness
in time & in Eternity. I thanckd  thankd it to him wth. 
1000 Tears, that he had let me live till this Time!