Moravian Lives

who came to see him, from the Power of the Blood
of Christ with a becoming Tenderness.
His happy & Joyfull  Joyful Departure to our Saviour renewd
& fastened the Impression, I had, of the blessed Con_
versation w.th him.
Now my former Inclination to the had fixd in me such a
Fear of myself, that I no where trusted to live, &
imagined Danger every where; but the Friend of
my Soul soon recollected to me, that I lookd more
on my blessed Husband as on the Conexion  Connection w.th him.
This made me prostrate myself before & I begged
w.th 1000 Fears forgiveness over all what passed.
He Mercy took me as I was, & I had from
thence a more happy Period. By all that, I could
not get rid of my Scrupulosity by the feelings of
my Misery & like a Child draw near to him
according to my Wish, therfore  therefore the Fear of myself
darkneth my happy Hours very often. In this
very Year, I & my Sister went to see the Con_
gregation at Hhuth, there I feeld  felt the very
Peace of God, and the Brethren & Sisters I
loockd  looked on as Children of God and had a great
respect towards them & I wishd incognito to
live in this Place. 1742. We came to see Hhuth a
second time & there we detemind  determined to remove thither.
But by setting out for Herrnhuth some Accident
happened & we possponed  postponed our Journey. Hereby

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a dangerous Period for my poor Heart begun,
a false Poeple filled our Minds with so much
dangerous Expectations and Things against the
Congregation, that our Journey was quite dropt  dropped.
By all that our Saviour was so gratious  gracious to
beware that I did't sin against his Church, &
my Disire  Desire still remaining to spent  spend my Days under
this Poeple. I was busy in reading the Deciples  Disciples
Semons  Sermons deliverd at Berlin & begged our Saviour
very often that if I belonged to this Folks, 
he would himself find means to bring me thiter  thither.
As my Brother moved from Wetteravia to Bertholsdorf,
I & my Sister paid him a Visit there for some
Weeks, by that we saw what false Opinions
had for foundation. But for all that I knowd  knew
very well that some Poeple  People who came to the Con_
gregation have been sent by & by back again, this
made me terribly afraid to venture asking Leave
nevertheless I feeled  felt a Instinct in my Heart
that I belonged to this People. At last I & my
Sister desireth Leave to stay in Bertholsdorf
(only to be near Hhuth & to try if we belong
to the Congregation or not) We got Leave
& then the 9th of Jan. 1747. we arrived in
Bertholsdorf to stay there.
Exact a Month past  passed as the 9th of Febr. in a 
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