Moravian Lives

In my 7.th Year of Age My Parents brought me to
Hhaag & there I came in the Anstalt, & found myself
here soon at home. I had from Time to Time feelings
in my Heart from our dear Sav.r & the Children Meetings
have been allways  always a Blessing for my Heart.
A.o 1746 I removed w.th my Parents hither to Hhuth
& so came in the Boys Anstalt here. For all I had
in my Children Years many a blessed Impression in
my Heart, but did't take so much Notice of this
began at present when I thought the of thereof to press
many Tears from my Eyes. Afterwarts  Afterwards I came in
several poor Circumstances. A.o 1750 I w.th a great
many Children was receivd among the Boys & the
then came to my Vater to lern  learn his Business. In the
the Beginning I went on very well, but afterwarts  afterwards
came in a phlegmatic state, that it would't go in
nothing with me & was not sorry or distressd about
at all. The most tender Reminicences  Reminiscences of my Brethen
& reproach's I did't mind much; & in this miserable
Condition I went on a good While. At least our
Sav.r found means himself & show'd to one the unhappy
Condition my Heart was in. Now I begun  began to weep
& to pray he would give me a sincere & open Heart to
him & my Brethren, which he gratiously  graciously complyeth
w.th  I was after that receivd the 7 Apr. 1753
in the Congregation to the Joy of my Heart.
Now my Disire  Desire was set upon, that our Saviour
would attain his whole Intention with me. The holy
Ghost begun  began his blessed work in my Heart, but I soon
                                                                                          lost

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lost my Course & spoiled 1 whole Year in a  an indifferent
State towards our Saviour. On New Years Day 1754
I was very perplexed about my poor Condition, & saw
myself no Advise  Advice or Help for me. In this Situation
I went to one of my dear Labourers & complaind
in my Need w.th Fears to him. He comforted me & ad-
vised me to go to our Sav.r Miserable & pityable  pitiable I
am, he knoweth he'll help me. Here I remembred  remembered
what a Blessing it is to be openhearted & sincere, then
my Heart became easy & comforted & I begun  began my
New Year happy & glad. the 25th of Jan. I got
Leave to be present by the Comunion on the Boys
Feast & then also the Day following by the Comunion
in the Church at Bertholsdorf. This was a great
Blessing for my Heart. On holy Thursday our
Sav.r graciously bestowed on me that after the forgoing
Pedilavium & Absolution to partake myself on
his holy Flesh & Blood. By this first Enjoyment
of this great Matter I could say nothing, as dear
Sav.r here I am, go through all my Soul & Body
& spoil every Thing what's not Siner  Sinner & Jesuslicke  Jesuslike
in me! The blessed Memory of the happy Choir-Feast, which
the blessed Disciple kept them the Boys has made a deep
Impression in my Heart, which was the 9th of July 1755.
A.o 1756 the 29th of Augs. I was receivd in Single Brethren
Choir, I begg'd to our Sav.r for new Grace & Mercy, &
He did't ashame me, but let me not in Want of his Blessings.
                                                                      A.o 1757.