Moravian Lives

Nearness again. Now a new Scene was drawn
up in my Heart: I begun to feel, that I was not
sincere & upright, I did not like to see so much
in my Uncleaness  Uncleanness in my Heart, I was afraid for
myself, & ashamed to tell a Body of. For all that
I begged to our Saviour to discover every Thing
what is in me & help me to a upright & true
Heart. My Labourers very tenderly reachd me
their Hands and assisted me and made me Courage
to give over every Thing what not will stand the Proof.
I deploreth by my Savr. to starve thro' his Flesh &
Blood what's unJesuslike & make me a Jesus-
like Girl. So far she herself in the Begin of
Ao. 1760.
From that Time She lernt herself better to know, grew
open & free towards her Labourers & became a tender
& sinerlike  sinnerlike Heart towards our Saviour.
In her Outward Behaviour not easily any Thing could
be found to be censured, but her timerous  timorous & bakward-  backward-
keeping Temper caused to herself many melancholic
Hours. However our dear Savr. did in this respect very
much on her Heart; & She brought away her time very
happy & easy.
Ao. 1762 the 4th. of May: She was received & according
to her Desire blessed into the Sggle Sister Choir, to
the great Joy of her Heart & She went over wth. a comfor-
ted Heart into her new Choir. Her last Births-Day
the 27th. of January

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was a Day of Praise to her, especially the Watch-Words
were a great Rejoysing  Rejoicing to her: Du hast meine Klage
verwandelt in einen Reigen. o du in Freuden-Oel
verwandler meiner Zährlein! She declard, she never
had such Watchwords in her Life on her Birth-Day.
In the Beginning of Febr. a gallaping  galloping Consumption
sized upon her to the great Surprice  Surprise of herself & every
Body who knowd her. She was before a heathy  healthy & brisk Girl,
& on a sudden changed to the great Surprise of every
One. She was directly ready & set upon to go Home
& possitively  positively declared to hear of nothing else. Her
Sickness encreaseth  increaseth daily, but She was happy & allert  alert
with her fellow Sisters, but sometimes She was
observed in the most happy Meditations & Conversation
wth. her Sevr.  Savr. & that so deep, that She was not
present to herself & nobody could interrupt her.
When She recoverd again her Y Joy was inexpressible
about her Prospect to be expected. A! said She one
times, how it is to me I can't tell, when I think a
few Weeks past, I was as healthy a Girl as any One
of you, & now I see myself a Canditat  Candidate to go to my
dearest Friend! I am full of Joy & Wonder!
The 30th. of April She became so weak that She
was forced to keep to her Bed, but thought herself to go
the next Day to go to her Work again. However
it soon discovereth itself that She would not rise