Moravian Lives

Anstalt was to move from Weteravia to Hhuth,
then my Parents toock  took  me home to Lindheim
again. This cost me many Tears & I could't be
accustomd to live here a long while. My Parents took me for
a good Child, & I took Care not to loose  lose  this good
Credit they had for me. I begun to be proud, took myself
for good to  too, but my poor Heart grew dry & indifferent
towards our Savr. at last I became disobedient
towards my Parents & quite reverse to my former
Disposition, so that they was at a loss what to do
with me. In this Condition my Heart was rest-
less & this continued till 1755. On good Fryday  Friday  as
my dear Parents very emphatically remembred to me
what our good Lord suffered & did for me, this brought me to
consider, how miserable I have ever since Slandereth my noble
Time away. This emberrassd  embarrassed  my very Soul & I deplord
to our Savr. wth. many Tears to forgive my Sins & bestow
Mercy on me anew, that I may feel his Nearness again.
Hereby I experienced how soon our Savr. is inclined
to draw near to his poor Worms & to forgive their
Sins & Iniquity. 
From this Day I had began a new Period of my Life,
I had many happy Discourses in my Silence with my
Saviour, for all that I sometimes feeld  felt  my dry &
indifferent Heart. The Discourses deleiverd  delivered  to the Children
I could never hear without a reproach in my Heart,
& a Wish or Desire for a Opportunity to employ any
Children Years in such a happy Situation. I thought
it very hard for me to stay at home & desireth my

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Parents to assist me in this my Wish. Our Savr. supported
my Desire & I got Leave & came to my great Satis-
faction the 15th. Sept. 1756 on in Herrnhuth. Some Days
after myn  my  Arrival I came in my Choir-House & lived
there very happy, thancked  thanked  our Savr. very often that he
brought me again in the Congregation. By the removal
in our new Choir-House, the 18th. Octob. & the Pedelavium
the same Day, I receivd a new Blessing, Our Seviour  Saviour
absolved me anew & I put myself in his His Hand as 
his own Property wth. a heartely  heartily  Desire to form & make
me according to his Hearts Desire.
The 6th. of Dec. I was receivd. into the Congregation, I was
from all my Heart ashamed about all the Blessings which
our dear Lord bestowed on such a poor Siner  Sinner; now my
incessant Wish was: a true Love in my Heart towards
his Waunts  Wants  & a continual Feeling of his Nearness.
In the Time following I had many happy Conversations wth. 
our Savr. & languishd very often in my Solitude after
the holy Comunion  Communion! This Grace he bestowed sooner on
poor me as I could expect it, then the 9th. of July
1757. I heard the good Tiding that I was Candidat  Candidate 
& the 31 of Augs. I received our Lords Supper the
first Time! Now was my Desire to enjoy the Effect of his
Flesh & Blood to enjoy in my poor Soul & Body.
Our Saviour was very gratious  gracious to me & I had after-
wards happy Days & Hours & when I feeld  felt my naturel  natural
dry & indifferent Heart & had no rest & weapt  wept so long after
the only Friend of my Soul till I feeld  felt his blessed