Moravian Lives

for the name of Jesus [page is cut off]
attempted before, tho I was confirmed & the Bishop at the age of [cut off]
this was in the year <date>1773</date> . . on Easter Sunday early I waked from
a Dream I had of being in Heaven where I saw in letters of Gold
the Resurrection of Jesus Christ and believd there was a people on
earth assembled at this very moment to sing the Praises of the Lovd
and that I should once belong to them . . I went on my way rejoicing
thinking my heart was quite clean - but to my great surprise found
<sic>evill</sic>  <corr>evil</corr> thoughts arise in my mind - - and that word of Scripture occurd
often -- Take Loed lest there be in any of you an <sic>Evill</sic>  <corr>Evil</corr> heart of unbelief
in departing from the living God - this caused me great perplexity
for instead of <sic>submiting</sic>  <corr>submitting</corr> to the teachings of the Holy Spirit - I was
like a froward[?] child who thought I could non go alone and fell . . .
I got into reasonings about the Holy Trinity and abundance of things
<sic>untill</sic>  <corr>until</corr> I was quite confusd . . I still corresponded with <persname>Tho! Slarttyr</persname>
who had been in <placename>London</placename> and <placename>Hampshire</placename> with the same family
He <sic>beged</sic>  <corr>begged</corr> my pardon for his misbheaviour some years ago and
intreated me to marry him saying he had saved 300 Pounds in his
Service. I wrote him an account of my awakening and imagined by his
answer that a work of grace was begun in his heart - my Aunt died
soon <sic>afer</sic>  <corr>after</corr> and left me 270 Pounds besides valuable - - I non conceivd
the proud vain hope of converting him to our Sav.<hi rend="superscript">r</hi> and with this view
gave my consent . . tho it often occurd to my mind Be ye not unequally
Yolned[?] with <sic>unbeleivers</sic>  <corr>unbelievers</corr> and other text of Scripture which was
in certainly Admonitions from the Holy Spirit  . . I also dreamd
I saw a Man stand with his Back towards me in a Garment
of a Blood colour. . in his hand he held a ring which he threw
into the sky I saw it turn into 2 bright stars with a <sic>singall</sic>  <corr>single</corr> spark
between . . while I was looking a voice said to me you will
be <sic>maried</sic>  <corr>married</corr> - but soon separated - - the small star signifies a child
the man who stands there is Our Lord Jesus Christ - - -
his <sic>comming</sic>  <corr>coming</corr> to <placename>Bristol</placename> left me no time to think . . we were
<sic>maried</sic>  <corr>married</corr> the <date>first of June 1775</date> and went to live at <placename>Bradford</placename>
in <placename>Wiltshire</placename> entering into the breiving Cruyness[?] - - - and Now
instead of the happiness I had expected my Sav.<hi rend="superscript">r</hi> hid his Trace
from me I met with nothing but afflication - I was brought to
to bed of a little girl in <date>March 1776</date> who died at eleven weeks old
and <date>Feb.</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>r</date></hi><date> 1 1777</date> became a truly disconsolate Widow - - for tho my
Sav<hi rend="superscript">r</hi> at the moment of my Husbands departure took me as it were
in his Arms and promisd to be my Everlasting Husband. . Yet
I had lost that tender constant communion with him which I
had before I was <sic>maried</sic>  <sic>married</sic> . . my Husbands relations <sic>perswaded</sic>  <corr>persuaded</corr>
him to make a Will to their mind tho contrary to the dictatis
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